A letter to Dad..

Dear dad,

It's father's day today.but dunno why,i ain't missing you.But that doesnt mean,I don't miss you.I miss you but it's just that,I miss you at times so very random..travelling in a bus,when some stranger outta those many strangers,not necesserily sharing a glance or two,resemble you or when he shows a gesture,speaks out a word or more,a voice,a laughter,a smile,style of clothing,a posture or body proportions that resemble yours..I see you in  him.Sometimes,i hear you calling my name or some random phrasel speech reaching to my ears in your voice,especially when i'm home.I had been having dreams of you,where you were in extreme pain,crying for help in helpless child-like way and extreme tragic incidents taking place in context with you.But recently,after all those nightmares,I had a dream wherein,you were in a perfectly healthy n happy state and smiled n laughed and shared care with me and bestowed your love upon me.The very next morning I woke up,I knew in my heart that it was a good sign.Something good was about to happen and that your soul was or coming out of that despaired pain.And I was right.And only you know what I mean. :)

Dad,If I know what loving somebody forever means or is..it's because of YOU.I remember hugging you many times a day like I never have before,during those days when you were goin' through that suffering and pain,as if you were the only significant person in my life,as if loving and caring for you was the only best thing I could do and feel with all my heart.I remember the times,when you would hold me in your arms like a baby do to his mother and cry like a child and expected concern and care from me and I felt like never letting go off that grip.There were so many times when you were like a child to me and there had been times when i was your child.We both exchanged our roles some or the other way at consecutive times.We were mother and child to each other at different times with role-reversal going on all the time.How can I stop loving you dad and how can I remorse when you love me the same and maybe more.

Rest in peace!

And dear God sitting right next to him,Please take care of him.I love you too.

Love,

Your daughter

P.S. - I'm getting hiccups ever since the clock struck 12.i really hope,you're missing me dad while watching me constantly from the heavens up above.. :)